Life lately (living arrangements, lost love, and looking for a job!)

13.7.18

I last wrote one of these posts in March so I should probably share what has been happening in my world between then and now. I've made myself a cup of tea and don't plan to move until this is published so here goes!

April and May were tough months for me. Living with my Mum wasn't working at all for either of us and, after a particularly fiery argument, I temporarily moved out and stayed with Oliver for a few weeks. After that stressful episode my health plummeted and a lot of old symptoms made an appearance which was really tough to deal with. I felt like my progress was going backwards and this was really tough on my mental health. Thankfully after the dust settled from the argument, and I took good care of myself for a bit, my symptoms lifted a little. 

I am now living with my Dad and things are better, although we probably get on each others' nerves a fair bit! 


Sadly my relationship with Oliver came to an end a little while back; a decision I didn't take lightly. Sometimes in life we fall out of love with people for reasons we can't put our finger on and it's incredibly hard to deal with the repercussions of that. I feel terrible for breaking someone's heart. I know only too well how tough it is, after I was turfed out of my home and relationship back in December 2016 (an experience that has had a major impact on my confidence and ability to trust men *although I do accept that he was a particularly shitty example of a "man"*)

But sometimes the right things are the hardest to do, and I can't be with someone if it doesn't feel right. As much as I would love to settle down with someone I just don't feel like it has been meant to be on the cards for me, but the romantic in me won't give up hope! 


Although I am still dealing with a lot of fluctuating symptoms, I do feel like I would be able to manage a part time job so I'm on the hunt again! I have been enjoying building up my Etsy shop (link!) over the last six months and I would love to carry on running that alongside a permanent job. That would be ideal. 

A couple of weeks ago I saw Flight of the Conchords at Leeds Arena and it was abso-bloody-lutely incredible. I discovered them in 2010 and have been obsessed ever since and truly never thought they would tour the UK again so I feel like a very lucky bean that I got to see them! 

Aside from all of the above, I have been kept busy with poorly pugs! But more on that in a separate post.

Thanks for reading. x

2 comments:

  1. New reader here! Sorry to hear that you've had a difficult time of it lately...I hope this cloud produces a silver lining for you! Also, just checked out your Etsy shop...DAMN GIRL! You are talented! I'm in love!

    Take care,

    Laura xx

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    1. Oh my, thank you so much for saying so! That has given me a real confidence boost :) xx

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